Our only limits are self imposed. If you have to question why you are doing something, find the purpose. November 3rd, 2017 at 5:05pm I started the race that would conclude with me covering 101 miles on foot. The journey didn’t start there, however. Ever since starting running 3 years ago I had the quest to push my body to new limits. January 2014 I couldn’t even run .1 a mile. January 2017 I ran my first Marathon, 1 week later I covered 40 miles at Eric’s race Skydive Ultra pacing Sally L. for her first 200 miler that inspired me, March 2017 I was signed up by Robert R. for Dunes 50 miler with 16 hours to prepare. I finished. Volunteering and crewing have always been my way of giving back, crewing/pacing at Save The Daylight for the past 2 years. I ran the entire Pinellas Trail (PTC 46 Miler) in September as a training run for this race. I had been going through an extremely tough time in my life where not even running was very enjoyable on top of being injured. I was struggling to find the purpose of why I was doing this, and why I wasn’t enjoying something that I knew I loved. I continued on despite my doubts. After all, I had been living fearlessly for the past year and nothing to lose.
When I started the race that evening I had 3 A, B & C goals.
A. Beat my distance personal best of 50 miles
B. Reach 100k (62.1 Miles)
C. Hit my ultimate goal of 100 miles
I started my Friday night by knocking out the first 50k (31 miles) just after sunset. I slept a few hours knowing I would need it the following night. My parents came to give me my tent which I decided to just sleep in my car as setting up my tent would take too much valuable time away from sleeping/moving. I woke up and went back out at sunrise and didn’t stop until I was finished. I was running uncrewed/no pacer which is typically a vital part in 100 mile races. This race is extremely well run so I had many people making sure I had what I needed. I had a log book where I would cross off every lap with a note so I knew how I was doing. The first 50 miles of this race was me trying to hold back and not going out so fast knowing I still had another 50 miles to go. I ended up having some blister issues early on around mile 36 that the Thompson family took care of for me. I had nice company of Katie, Bernadette, Vince on the course and my former co-worker Dom show up to pace me a lap in the heat of the day. When I got to mile 50 and distance PR/ed I was super grateful that I was able to accomplish something I wouldn’t have ever fathomed 3 years ago. I reached 100k (Mile 62) and I was unsure if my body was going to let me get to 100 miles. My Garmin Watch had died sometime within the last 40 miles and I had to charge it, so I was able to set my pace later on. Thankfully, Cortland Wheeler showed up to pace me 3 laps and once I hit mile 73.5 I hit a wall. Somewhere I had done a lap with the R.D.’s daughter, Emma who kept me in good spirits. I was alone, dark, tired in the middle of Saturday night around 12am and I just wanted to lay down. I was moving my legs, but the level of pain my body was feeling was none like I had ever experienced before. The temperature was flucuating with pockets of warm air and I had originally thought my body wasn’t regulating my body temperature very well, it was just the air. I never wear pants or long sleeves while running but I was wearing 2 layers. That is when I knew that I was pushing myself into a new unknown. I remember wanting to take a nap and Sam Reilly telling me to go out and do 2 more laps before taking a nap. I ended up powering through 3 laps taking everything I had in me which I was averaging 1 hour 15-20 minutes per lap. I remember walking into a palm fond in my face once on one of those laps. I came into the aid station feeling defeated but not letting anyone know what I was feeling since I had been non-stop smiling the entire time without even realizing until others started pointing it out. I said to Jill to wake me up in 20 minutes. I couldn’t fall asleep. As soon as I thought I was falling asleep 13 minutes after I had sat down, Justin the R.D. woke me up and told me to get back out there since I was on a time restraint. Still smiling. From 7am Saturday to 7:32am Sunday I was continuously moving forward except for that short time. I popped up, grabbed my pack and went back out to bear the course. It was at that moment I knew I was going to power through anything and everything I was feeling to accomplish goal C. Around mile 90 I started to come around again, 3am-5am was definitely the toughest mentally and physically. Sally’s husband John was also on the quest for his first 100 miler and we just happened to have the same exact mileage left, 3 loops and to the mile sign (101). Melinda and Sally were also on the quest for 100+ miles making our dynamic group all racing together. John & I took everything those last laps we had to get to the finish line. At 7:32am on Sunday November 5th, 2017 I became a 100 miler finisher. I had completed the toughest mentally and physical thing I have ever done my entire life and I had spent the previous 3 hours thinking how I was thinking of my next goal of 150 miles possibly at Skydive Ultra in January. My nutrition was simple and planned out where I lived on soda, ginger-ale, ginger chews, pb&j uncrustables, ramen/broth, a quesadilla (Thanks Ian!) and candy. I had zero nutrition issues which I was thankful for and only had a few blisters which are finally healing.
I will continue to push myself to new limits in every way I can, that is exactly how I define living to the fullest. I am eternally grateful to be able to do what I do and I am never going to stop. I find the ultimate satisfaction through adrenaline and living. I am the happiest I have ever been. I will continue to apply various concepts of my life to new unknowns this coming year for the perfect balance. This race I lost and found myself from within again. I am forever grateful for every experience including this major one that has helped shape me into the person I am.
I want to thank everyone who has been apart of this journey and quest for me to become a 100 miler finisher. It truly takes a village. First off, the race director Justin Radley/Jill for letting me run my first race over 5k “8 Hours of Hell” for my 18th birthday some years ago where I nearly passed out and was pulled from the course but you let me keep going with JJ’s supervision anyways. For letting me run Save The Daylight and being there the entire way. What a honor it was to have you hand me my first belt buckle. Karen Ziv, for always being there and encouraging me. Megan & Ian Forsyth… you two rockstars! Manning the aid station and feeding me when no food sounded appetizing. Sam Reilly and Lara/Mike Costa for telling me what I needed to do whether I liked it or not, Mike for boost of The Grapery Grapes! The Thompson Family…. for all the encouraging words, making sure I was taken care of and using your expertise blister care to save my feet! It is always a pleasure to see you at races. Cortland, for pacing me and believing I would get my 100 miles complete even when I was at my lowest. Melinda, for everything that you have been through and being an amazing friend congratulations on your 100! Sally, the Ultra Queen for inspiring me to go after my first 50/100 and continue on to go after 150 in the future. John, for running that last Half Marathon with me, we did it! Sue Edwards for the company and positive mantras. Eric Friedman for helping me answer my Why Not?, helping me create new goals/pushing past new limits and #GoBeDoLIVE! Tim, Heather, Matty Z, Brad, Mark, Kimmi, Cass, FURbies, and every single person since I can’t list them all. All of my “new” friends from different walks of life that followed me and encouraged me in any way they could. I also want to thank my parents for dealing with my crazy passionate self, who support me in my endeavors even though they don’t know what/all it entails. Trust the process. Relentless Forward Motion! #thisisliving #gobedolive